Thursday, February 11, 2010

Chewing On Things

Everyone wants to know that they're here, among other people. They want to know that they're not alone, that there are people out there that care about them and what they do, usually besides their parents. Most of the time these people turn to a medium to release their inner desires, to call to people and say, "Here I am! Follow me on Blogger! Listen to what I have to say! I'm important, I promise!" We look for this influx of people, complete strangers, to comment on what we have to say, to make us feel important and interesting. To say, "Wow, yeah. You're really interesting." But we don't really want their approval. We just want someone's approval. It doesn't matter who's. It could be Bill Gates, or Bill Stewart down the street. It doesn't matter.

On a side note, the title of this post refers to the fact that I'm thinking about about a billion different things at once;

Music? Yes. I'm always thinking about music. Where can I get new music? What genres are there that I haven't experimented with? Acoustic has found a place in my heart over the past few days, which I'm greatly thankful for. Bands like HE IS WE and Cady Groves are amazing at the moment. But I'm sure I'll move on to something else fairly quickly. At school, I'm in Madrigals. I love it. Probably my favorite non-academic class. Of course I mean things like Math and Chemistry when I refer to academic classes, but I do love Madrigals. The teacher is amazing, and she really connects well to us as high school kids. Not to mention I'm friends with pretty much everyone in that class. Like, really good friends, which makes it very easy to have a good time in that class. Music is always on. I made an amazing playlist, re-named Scrambled Envy, and it's got every song that isn't part of a show. It's completely random, and I can shuffle it, play it normal, do whatever I want with it, and I love it. I listen to it every day. On the other hand, I have my "Show Tunes" playlist (I do need a better name for it...) where I can keep all of my show music. I really hate shuffling shows... I feel like I want to listen to a whole show if I'm going to, not just one random song from it.

School? Yeah, school is pretty much always on my mind. How did I do on this test? What homework do I have? When is that enormous project for Chemistry due? Yadda yadda yadda. This quarter I'm doing much better. I kind of fell in to an "I don't care" attitude at the end of last quarter, and it really effected my grades. Not good. But, I'm back on track now, and should be happily on track for the rest of the quarter, and then the rest of the year. French is probably my least favorite subject. My teacher is ridiculous. She doesn't teach us, only tests us on things that we don't know. I really don't like her as a teacher. I'm sure she's a lovely person, but as a teacher, she kind of sucks. I'm not a big fan of my chemistry teacher either. She's crazy, and doesn't like me. She stuck me in the back of the room. Now, if you're a teacher, and you have a student who isn't doing well, wouldn't it make sense to put that student in the front of the class, where they can pay attention and try to improve? I think so. But no, she goes and puts me in the back, the complete opposite of what you would think. Not to mention that I'm short... Just saying, though. My algebra teacher is nice, a little eccentric, but nice. I like her. She's funny. My World Studies teacher is really interesting. He includes economics into all of our lessons, and I really think that economics is interesting. I like finding things out that I didn't know before, like random facts. They're cool. English? Yeah, it's an interesting class. We do a lot of reading short stories, and books, a lot of delving into the text and pulling important information to use and annotate. Which is good. It'll teach you to do it. I did it when we were given our articles for our World Studies exam about Napoleon. It really helped, and I ended up with an A, so I guess it works, too. The only thing about English, is that she piles on work. She tells us that we're just going to be doing short stories and responding until the CAPT (Connecticut Aptitude Performance Test, I think...) and then we're going to be starting some Shakespeare, but instead, we're doing a whole new "Modern Author" project starting Tuesday. We already picked our books. Mine is by Dean Koontz, but I can't remember what the name of the book is. Something about fading or something... However, we have to respond to a story too, so... whatever.

Reading? Yeah, reading is cool. I'm a bookworm, minus the worm and plus human. It's a good thing. I'm reading The Weight of Silence by Heather Gudenkauf right now. It's amazing. I really like it. The point of view is kind of weird, because it goes from the main character one chapter, to a completely different character later, and you know who's speaking from what the chapter title is. Weird, like I said. It kind of makes me happy, though. The last book I read was White Oleander, which was amazing. I loved that book, and am almost sad to see it go back to the library. Bye, bye, book.

I guess that I freak out during the week. Enough to propel me to spill all of my thoughts at one time, so I can move on to stress out about the next thing. You know that stress can actually cause you to sweat? That's gross. I learned it today in health. I really don't like that. But I can do it, I can. Time to get to work, power down, and get things done.