Wednesday, June 27, 2012


I used to think that I was your number one. The one you woke up in the morning, and the one who you fell asleep with at night. I thought that I was your first choice, that I was something special.

And now I know that I'll always be second. 

And it hurts, because you know that I have no one.

I'll always be the silver medalist.

And I know you asked me why I was sad, and I told you everything was fine. And I know that you know that I was lying. And I think you know that I know that you know I was lying. And to be honest, I wish you knew why I was lying.

I just wish I didn't have to tell you. 

For now I'll keep reading. Distracting myself. I'm glad that I have eight days of work in front of me, because every time I see you it makes me remember that I'll never win the gold.

And someday that'll be okay, but today it isn't. And it won't be tomorrow either.

I'm sorry you ruined our relationship, it was really the only one I had left.

...and the trees kept moving...they just wouldn't stop I laid down and made a snow angel.