Friday, January 21, 2011

That Crappy, Crappy Feeling

If you're a writer, you've felt this way. I know I feel this way about 75% of the time: when you want to write, but can't find the right words to say what you want to say without rambling on and sounding like an idiot, kind of like what I'm doing now? Yeah... that feeling. It's baffling how degraded I feel right now, and I don't even know why.

Honestly, there wasn't an event or anything that put me in a sorrow-full mood today. Actually, in retrospect to everything that went on the past week, today was pretty damn good.

So why was I so upset all day? Why do I not feel like sleeping? And why have I just been writing, and writing, and writing, but not saying anything? Why is it so frustrating to try and make a point, and lose track of what you're saying, then contradict yourself seven times and end up back where you started?


Maybe I just need to work on one of my novels. Get the creative juices flowing again, you know?

That could be what I need. Or maybe I just need to rant rant rant rant rant about everything that's happening, and why I'm sad and jealous and confused and stressed and I just want to write about these things. Is it possible to rant about why you want to rant? Either way, today sucked for no reason.

Sometimes you just have a really bad day.